Why do you pull me close and then ask me for space?

If all it is is 8 letters, why is it so hard to say?

I like you.

14th October 2018

我想我会开始想念你，可是我刚刚才遇见了你

How could you break our promise so easily?

You kept insisting it was for my own good and you have my best interest in mind,

but have you considered how I felt?

"All is fair in love and war"

How is it fair that you can buy gifts for me, yet I can't.

Just because I'm not financially stable like you 😔

You deserve the best

and sadly, I'm not yours to keep. 💔

You're perfectly wrong for me, and that's why it's so hard to leave

I won't deny, I was once attracted to your charms,
You are caring, attentive, protective and a true gentleman.
It's difficult to guard my heart against these rare qualities,
but no matter how hard I try to overlook certain things,
I still don't think we are compatible.

This revelation came to light when we're each supporting our favorite Dota 2 teams.
Sounds really childish, but true, it was that day that I realized,
no matter how much I like your attentiveness and caring personality,
I still cannot handle a guy who is egoistical and vain.
"Confidence is attractive and sexy, but over-confidence is a slow and insidious killer."

I have been told to stop stringing you along
since I already knew that nothing can, nor will happen between us.
I think I've already been quite clear about my feelings over the past months.
Indirect rejections and discreetly pushing you away through texts and gestures,
hoping you would get the meaning behind my actions, but I don't think you did.

"Ignorance is bliss",
and you've played the "Silence means consent" card one too many times.
The approaches I had used may be too subtle for you to notice the meaning,
but it was to minimize the hurt that I will, eventually cause you.
And I'm filled with guilt whenever you treat me as if,
there could be something more between us. 😞

You think it's easy

You think I don't want to run to you

But there are mountains

And there are doors that we can't walk through

I know you're wondering why

Because we're able to be

Just you and me

Within these walls

But when we go outside

You're gonna wake up and see that it was hopeless after all

No one can rewrite the stars

How can you say you'll be mine

Everything keeps us apart

And I'm just not the one you were meant to find.

You could break my heart in two, but when it heals it beats for you.

Last time, I was able to use "studies" as an excuse to evade questions regarding my relationship; now, I can no longer rely on that excuse.

有没有男朋友? 
为什么没有?
是不是还再等他?

Well, I found the answer to these questions:-

因为还未遇到一个想让我谈恋爱的对象 :]